flawed & fabulous...

how sad love - you are in my prayers today

Thank you.
Much love to you.

Hugs are very much appreciated, my friend. Kind, comforting words, too.

I send much love. I know what it's like to lose someone close to the heart. Just never forget he's watching over you and he's in a really good place. That always brings me comfort.

Thank you...

love back at you
xoxo

hello dear one.
I'm sorry for the loss of your dear brother.
It never stops huring just rests in a quieter place, don't you think?
my pappy died three years ago, monday and I still miss him fierce.

*soft hugs*

When I was writing this post I thought of you and your loss. I had forgotten, tho, just how close the two anniversaries are.

I think I may actually cry more now than I did when it happened originally. Maybe I'm in a better, more healthy place and am better able to process my loss; therefore am more comfortable with whatever emotions which may come up for me? At least I'd like to hope so...

thank you for words and comfort.
xoxo

Before today I hadn't known about this.

I'm so sorry for your loss of your older brother.

Thank you for sharing what you remembered about him. I like what you said about the chocolate cake.

Know you are in my heart tonight as I drift off to sleep. I send you love.

David certainly was a chocolate fiend. My Mom always made his birthday cake from scratch because he could tell the difference between her's and one which was store bought or made from a mix. She hasn't made one since his last birthday before his death. She says she'll never make another one; however, this past June on his birthday, she made one from scratch. She agreed with David that you could totally tell the difference. It was a funny, bittersweet moment for the three of us.

love back at you!
xoxo

I read your post about David, the one you linked in your comment. Was he your only sibling?

I think I would do the same thing if I were your mother. I would stop doing certain things (like her stopping the chocolate cake from scratch) if something happened to one of my kids.

I'm glad your mom has you. Not that you replace David, but I'm glad she still has someone to "mother." I'm sure you mean more to her than you'll ever know.

I have friends who have lost siblings, including my bil. His sister died in a car crash at 17.

Like you (prior to David's passing) I've not had close unexpected death. I try to keep the thought out of my mind, because it scares the daylight out of me. I think to myself about the friends I've had whose lives have endured many unexpected deaths. Then I start thinking about my turn coming around. I get scared.

Hope you made it through yesterday okay. My best friend lost her sister (they were one year apart) about 15 years ago. They were both in their 20's. She told me it took a full ten years to finally be "okay" with it. (Okay isn't the right word, but my mind isn't coming up with another.) Her sister's death was not okay, but after ten years, her ability to deal with what happened improved greatly.

xo!

I was sad for much of yesterday but life is a journey and everything is a lesson.

I just realized soemthing...yesterday after lunch my Mom asked if I wanted to take a walk down the pier. I said no so we got back into the car and headed back to her place. I had to pee and really wanted a hot cuppa tea. If I had thought about it for a minute, I would have realized that most likely walking down that pier would have been a sort of memorial for my brother. See, we scattered his ashes off that pier. Well, not exactly off that pier but the boat left from there and took us out about a mile then we scattered his ashes. It probably would have done my Mom good. Instead I was selfish. I'm feeling kinda down on myself for it right about now.

In memory, I put on the jacket he gave you (ironically, the one you gave me with chocolate in the pocket), and took the dogs for a walk. Now I'm sitting here, eating the candy that I had secretly stashed, and I'm thinking that my loss (the demise of my relationship) is nothing compared to yours. I'm so sorry for your loss, truly. You have a friend nearby if you ever feel the need to just get away and shop, or see a movie. Or share some chocolate. :)

Just as I thought of vaysha as I wrote this post, so did I think of you. For different reasons, of course. I thought of him, the jacket, of you and how you now have the jacket. I wish many, many, many fond memories in that jacket.

Thank you for the invitation...I think I will definitely take you up on it. Also, please remember, that should you ever want a friend to do something with, I am most definitely available!

Have you ever been to Mecca on a Thursday night? (I hear it's ladies night)

Haha, never been to Mecca. But is it "ladies" ladies night? lol!

I have it on firm authority that they do, indeed, have a ladies night. One of my bosses says it's every Thursday. Another friend of mine thought it was on Tuesdays. This friend says that women just circle the bar (the bar is round) and it's total meat market. I'm not sure how I feel about a meat market atmosphere but I'm always game for looking at pretty women. ;)

Cool! I like looking at pretty butches! We'll just split them down the middle and share. :) At this point, I'd love to feel like a piece of meat. It's been YEARS since anyone made me feel like that. Wheeeee!

my prayers are with you.

Thank you so much. :)

*hugs and love*

Thank you so, so, so much!

*hugs*

Unaccountably appreciated!

*hugs*

Thank you.

Hugs are fabulous.

I want you to know that I read this this morning before I drove up to my dad's site...and as a result I thought of you and your brother the whole time.

Then to come home and get your text message...was what made me decide to come back and post. :)

Still thinking of you...♥

Awwww...thank you, darlin! I haven't yet gotten to your most recent post. I look forward to reading it.

Thanks for thinking of me...you've been on my mind quite a bit these last few days.

*hug*

Thank you.
*mwah*